Busy Busy

The last couple of weeks have been busy. Last week Cayden had a speech appointment,

I had a hair appointment, had to get the house ready for company-SIL

LaDessa was coming for the weekend, had to get ready to go out of town on my

retreat which also consisted of getting together my scrap stuff and I never like

doing that. I am sooooo ready to get that room in order!!! Well wouldn't you know it, just

as I am needing to finish the laundry the washer craps out on me!! It ended up being 2 separate

problems and not worth fixing. It was only 5 maybe 6 years old. They just dont make things

to last anymore. Well being me, this meant that I had to get a washer & dryer set or else they

wouldn't match. Cody was working nights and sleeping days so we didn't have time to start the search before I went out of town Friday morning. LaDessa arrived Thursday night, thanks to her for driving 5+ hours to help Cody with the boys. Went to Stolen Moments Inn through

Sunday afternoon. I got home around 530-6 and before I could even pull in the drive Cody and the boys were outside ready to go start the search. We ended up at Lowe's Monday and Heather helped us pick out a beautiful washer & dryer set. They were delivered on Tuesday morning and so the laundry began.

That evening Cody had to worked and Colton was on the fussy side. He started running a temp before bed and didn't sleep much that night. By 7am his temp had reach over 103. Needless to say I got worried. He was lifeless, red, burning up, heavy breathing. Poor little guy. He didn't even have the energy to walk or even crawl. You know it's bad if Cody stayed up-which he did. When the nurses' line finally called me back his temp had went down some and she suggested we wait to call in the dr office when they opened. That wasn't until 830 and then I couldn't get through then they couldn't see him till 415 so I left a message for the nurse and she got us in at 930. the test came back negative for flu & streep so dr said he

just had a viral infection. Tylenol every 4 hours, like I had been doing. He woke up by 1030p last night and I ended up putting him in bed with me for the night. he is sooooo much better today, a little diarrhea but otherwise walking all over, playing and happy. THank goodness my little guy is better and praying that he continues to improve.

Now to catch up on the normal every day stuff...laundry, dishes, cleaning.

The joys of life!

Isn't he cute?!?! He sooo desperately wants Daisy Mae to sit with him but she just doesn't want anything to do with that. I can't blame her, her LUVS her a little to ruff. He pulls on her legs to get her to move where he wants her to, pulls on her hair, the typical things. I think?!?

He was soooo happy that she sat with him to watch Blues Clues. She was such

a good girl. It lasted maybe 10 minutes and it was over. He cried wanting her to come

back but she chose to sit on the back porch instead. ha!

I love it when my boys make each other laugh. They had been playing together all day, some

good, some bad. But they were in the LR wrestling around and had gotten

so tickled with each other. I ran and got my *new* camera, pulled the boys

together and luckly got a pic in before they were off to play again.

In case you can't read Cayden's shirt clearly it reads, "100% GOOD, 10% of the time"

This is sooooo true!! But the 10% of the time is soooo worth

it.

Anyone else?!?

I have been having a bad time lately. I am not sure what my deal is lately but I can not get out of this funk. It is like I am soooo tired of crying that I have turned into this blah, negative, sad, miserable thing. I hate it but I don't know how to make it stop. I try to put on a happy face

for the day but the smallest thing gets under my skin. Cody keeps asking me what's wrong, did

he do something, am I mad at him....I can't answer him. I don't know what to say. Yes, No, Not really, I don't know. It's not him, but it is. It is everything. But what do I do.

I am tired of not being a priority, in anyone's life, not even to me. My kids come first, then I

worry about my hubby. Why not me? What happened to me? It is like I have no friends, no life. I am alone, always alone. No one around to listen or to care. Every one is tooo busy. I mean I get it, the boys take A LOT of my time but come on.....am I REALLY that MEAN, that bitchy, that

horrible to be around?!? I know that I tend to be on the negative side, which I hate about my self and would LUV to change, but come on!!!

I feel lonely, alone, ugly, fat, a failure, friendless, loveless, horrible mother & rolemodel, emotionless, tired...soooo tired, useless..............I don't think that I need to go on. U get

the point. Nothing is right, all is wrong.

What am I supposed to say to try to explain something that I don't even know, it just is.

Thanks for listening even if it doesn't make sense. I'm not sure that I even get it.

I need.....hell if I knew what I needed I would get it!!!!

Prayers

As most of you know, on Friday one of our Best Friends,Matt, lost his GF unexpectedly. Today we went to the viewing and though I did not know her she was obviously loved by many. She started her career as a teacher in Keller and continued her education and received her masters and for the last 3 years was a school counselor in SL.
Matt & Melissa met in 2007 on eharmony. Though it was not a relationship that I truly understood it was 'their' relationship. And seeing my friend in pain, with suffering in his eyes, with unanswered questions kills me. Matt is such a wonderful, caring & giving guy that it seems sooo unfair. She was only 29 and to think that she was just here and now she is gone is still a hard concept for me to grasp. You just never know what is going to happen or when it might happen. So call the ones you love and say Hello, you might not get the chance later. Make time for that friend that you always say you are going to make time to see but something always comes up. Fold the laundry later and take an extra 5 minutes to play with your kids.l

GOD BLESS!!!

Thanks Jennifer! He loves to be able to draw and not get into trouble

when he goes off of the pad..hehe!

I love this thing. I NEVER look at toys n things,

cause my house is being over run with them so I enjoy such inventive gifts

as this. Not messy but yet VERY enjoyable.

Thanks Again!

Girlfriends Rock!!

The Girls

Me, Trisha & Lynn

Yesterday I met Lynn & Trisha for lunch to celebrate

my birthday....late yes but I was out of town(once again!).

We went to Cozumel's in Grapevine and can I just say it was FABuLOUS! We had Guacamole, which I could NOT stop eating-YUM! As Lynn & I were walking in we both thought that Margaritas sounded YUMO. We couldn't decide on which one we wanted and Lynn discovered the "sampler" It came with 5 samples of their different margaritas in this bridge type of thingy. They were soooo good!

Can I just say that them girls went overboard!!! OH MY!!!! Lynn made me several

gifts; desk organizer, lrg paper clip, mini-book and a beautiful card. She also bought

me a coffee stamp set, the most fabulous owl pillow...which Cayden confiscated

from me as soon as he saw it. Then Colton had to get his hands on it...later they were whining over it so I had to take it back for myself...darn! Trisha made me a HUGE

'S' covered in metal....I LUV! and soooo many other wonderful things.

Lots of goodies!

It is great to be surrounded by such wonderful

women. And to know that they luv me despite ALL of my

flaws just ROCKS and makes me feel good inside.

So thank you girls! I love you! And feel
so privileged to be friends with such
beautiful souls!


God Bless!

CONFESSION!!!

I have to confess......that I did not understand the 'obsession' of The Twilight Series in the beginning. My lil' sis saw Twilight in the theater and said how great n wonderful it was. I wasn't convinced but all the gals kept talkin bout it and i felt left out so I finally gave in. so when it came out on DVD I bought it, which for me is sooooo out of the ordinary. After watching it, I still didn't really get it. I thought that it was ok, but what was ALL the hype about? I wasn't sure. I guessed that I was to OLD for all all this. have never been much of a reader despite my desire to be. I was very impressed with myself to complete this series. I am holding twilight in my hands trying not to re-read them. I can not believe that my self. I am sooooo busy, I don't have time to re-read something!! But I cant help but keep WANTING to do so. I don't' necessary like them in real life like the rest of the world, but I never did fit in. But I am in LOVE with the LOVE, the love that they both have for Bella. I don't believe in "soul mates" but I am married to my BF. Which is Jacob in my eyes. I would love to believe in Edward but I just think that he is an self absorbed azz! I know that people are going to hate me for that.....oh well.
xoxoxo