It was GREAT to see one of my Best Friends. It has been forever since we

have seen each other, life always gets in the way.

We are going to try to get together for dinner tonight and hang out. I hope

it works out so that we can get together, I sure do miss this girl.

Luv u Christy!!

ONEderfulL!!!!!

My baby is already turning ONE!! It doesn't seem possible. It makes me sad yet proud to know that we have made it this far.

We had a small celebration at the house this past Sunday and let me

tell you-THAT BOY LUVS HIM SOME CAKE!! He ate more

than half of his smash cake before I noticed and had

to take it away from him-haha!

WhoooWhooo...

This is his home for now. It is right outside the laundry/dog room. She just sits up there

and is soooo precious. She goes down into the post when you let the dogs

out.

She is a Pygmy owl. Sue looked it up online. This is the 2nd year that she has found

this as her home.

What a magnificent site! Isn't she beautiful?!?!

Anthologies

Finally!! Anthologies has opened. My parents and sis came in town Thursday evening so that Sonya and I could be there when they opened the doors for the 1st time Friday morning. It was wonderful! A place to shop, crop & create with all the familar and friendly faces. I thought that it was never going to get here and then there it was. Sonya & I cropped on both Friday & Saturday night. Boy was I tired. I only completed 1 of the 2 Halloween mini books that I had taken. Did 2 layouts also. I won 1 door prize. Wishing only that I had won the BoBunny fabulous pink bag. I can't wait to go back. Thanks to all the ladies who made this possible.

Busy Busy

The last couple of weeks have been busy. Last week Cayden had a speech appointment,

I had a hair appointment, had to get the house ready for company-SIL

LaDessa was coming for the weekend, had to get ready to go out of town on my

retreat which also consisted of getting together my scrap stuff and I never like

doing that. I am sooooo ready to get that room in order!!! Well wouldn't you know it, just

as I am needing to finish the laundry the washer craps out on me!! It ended up being 2 separate

problems and not worth fixing. It was only 5 maybe 6 years old. They just dont make things

to last anymore. Well being me, this meant that I had to get a washer & dryer set or else they

wouldn't match. Cody was working nights and sleeping days so we didn't have time to start the search before I went out of town Friday morning. LaDessa arrived Thursday night, thanks to her for driving 5+ hours to help Cody with the boys. Went to Stolen Moments Inn through

Sunday afternoon. I got home around 530-6 and before I could even pull in the drive Cody and the boys were outside ready to go start the search. We ended up at Lowe's Monday and Heather helped us pick out a beautiful washer & dryer set. They were delivered on Tuesday morning and so the laundry began.

That evening Cody had to worked and Colton was on the fussy side. He started running a temp before bed and didn't sleep much that night. By 7am his temp had reach over 103. Needless to say I got worried. He was lifeless, red, burning up, heavy breathing. Poor little guy. He didn't even have the energy to walk or even crawl. You know it's bad if Cody stayed up-which he did. When the nurses' line finally called me back his temp had went down some and she suggested we wait to call in the dr office when they opened. That wasn't until 830 and then I couldn't get through then they couldn't see him till 415 so I left a message for the nurse and she got us in at 930. the test came back negative for flu & streep so dr said he

just had a viral infection. Tylenol every 4 hours, like I had been doing. He woke up by 1030p last night and I ended up putting him in bed with me for the night. he is sooooo much better today, a little diarrhea but otherwise walking all over, playing and happy. THank goodness my little guy is better and praying that he continues to improve.

Now to catch up on the normal every day stuff...laundry, dishes, cleaning.

The joys of life!

Isn't he cute?!?! He sooo desperately wants Daisy Mae to sit with him but she just doesn't want anything to do with that. I can't blame her, her LUVS her a little to ruff. He pulls on her legs to get her to move where he wants her to, pulls on her hair, the typical things. I think?!?

He was soooo happy that she sat with him to watch Blues Clues. She was such

a good girl. It lasted maybe 10 minutes and it was over. He cried wanting her to come

back but she chose to sit on the back porch instead. ha!

I love it when my boys make each other laugh. They had been playing together all day, some

good, some bad. But they were in the LR wrestling around and had gotten

so tickled with each other. I ran and got my *new* camera, pulled the boys

together and luckly got a pic in before they were off to play again.

In case you can't read Cayden's shirt clearly it reads, "100% GOOD, 10% of the time"

This is sooooo true!! But the 10% of the time is soooo worth

it.

Anyone else?!?

I have been having a bad time lately. I am not sure what my deal is lately but I can not get out of this funk. It is like I am soooo tired of crying that I have turned into this blah, negative, sad, miserable thing. I hate it but I don't know how to make it stop. I try to put on a happy face

for the day but the smallest thing gets under my skin. Cody keeps asking me what's wrong, did

he do something, am I mad at him....I can't answer him. I don't know what to say. Yes, No, Not really, I don't know. It's not him, but it is. It is everything. But what do I do.

I am tired of not being a priority, in anyone's life, not even to me. My kids come first, then I

worry about my hubby. Why not me? What happened to me? It is like I have no friends, no life. I am alone, always alone. No one around to listen or to care. Every one is tooo busy. I mean I get it, the boys take A LOT of my time but come on.....am I REALLY that MEAN, that bitchy, that

horrible to be around?!? I know that I tend to be on the negative side, which I hate about my self and would LUV to change, but come on!!!

I feel lonely, alone, ugly, fat, a failure, friendless, loveless, horrible mother & rolemodel, emotionless, tired...soooo tired, useless..............I don't think that I need to go on. U get

the point. Nothing is right, all is wrong.

What am I supposed to say to try to explain something that I don't even know, it just is.

Thanks for listening even if it doesn't make sense. I'm not sure that I even get it.

I need.....hell if I knew what I needed I would get it!!!!